Hitochan’s Sanctuary

Waakka….i’ve finally tasted the hostel’s plaza’s food..!!! (err….they name it plaza instead of canteen..hmmmm…well, it does sound more classy…haha..)

anyway, the funniest thing was, when i sort of ‘announced’ that i’m gonna have lunch with my buddies, there went ‘ HUH….YOU EAT…??!?!?’

haha…seriously, the whole car was laughing and surprised at my ‘announcement’…funny, haven’t they seen me eating lunch before..??

well, it’s true that this is my first time eating in the hostel’s plaza…..hmm..

anyway, FOOD IS GOOOOOOOOOOODDDD…!!!!!!

now i long for ice cream…GOSH…i’ve not tasted ice cream for almost 8 months now..!!!T^T…..

and chocolates too…..GAHHhhhhhhh…i miss the taste of chocolates and ice cream…….i’ve been holding back for so long…..GAHhhhhhhh….ICE CREAMMMmmmmm..!!!

CHOCHOLATESSssssssss..!!!!!!!!!!!

(oh..and i miss the taste of rice..i’ve not eaten rice for 2 weeks already…..T^T)

is this torture..?? hmm……GAH..KAMAWANAI YO…SUBETE WA DIET NO TAMENI…!!!!!!

(oh..it basically means,’ GAh, it doesn’t matter, all for the sake of diet!’….

haha….tell me people, am i too obsessed with this diet thingy..??? hmm…

yeah…i’m pissed once again…but this time it’s on something else..yeah..it still concerns human…but this time…BLACK people….no…i’m not being racist….

ok…let me relate the story…

yeah, me and a few of my housemates just finished our sauna session and were on our way up….obviously, when you go sauna, your shirt would be drenched in sweat, making it wet…WELL DUH…what’s the point of sauna if you don’t sweat..!?!?

anyway, when we were on our way to the lift, we saw these group of black people…(yeah, i’m pissed at them, which is why i address them as BLACK PEOPLE…usually i’ll call them african american and will be very polite to them….like my neighbours, yeah, they are african americans..but i’m polite to them..!! i smile at them everytime i meet them…ok…nuff said..)

yeah, back to the lift incident….

there were about 5 - 6 of them, standing in front of the lift, not pressing the damned button…then yeah, 3 of us came by and we pressed the lift….the lift came, and the 3 of us went in….i was about to press close when they started to rush in into the lift….i thought to myself, oh well, nvm…

THEN the pissing incident happened….we were in the lift with those ‘people’, and they started to stare at us…like from top to bottom and from bottom to top….

GOSH…i feel so disgusted with their actions…one of them were even staring at my housemate’s ‘girls’….(understand…’girls’…)

GOSH….i got so pissed at them…(yeah, i was started at too) i wanted to scold them fuck off…but i thought, well, 3 girls, in the lift with 6 guys…nah, i think i’d better not…

when i got out of the lift, i gestured as though they were animals….(SERIOUSLY..they stared, glared and giggled at us..i mean…come on.!!! any normal human being would feel insulted…..well i did.!!!)

i was so insulted by their actions…..gosh….it changes entirely my view on them…..and the next time i see a bunch of these ‘people’ getting on the lift, i’d better take the stairs…or wait for the next lift…….

PATHETHIC…PATHETHIC PEOPLE…….*shakes head*

WOW…after some consideration yesterday, i’ve decided to cosplay 2 characters in a day….that’ll be Heine Westenfluss from GSD and Kaoru Hitachin from Ouran….GOSh…wonder if it’ll be hard on me..??

maybe i should move kaoru’s cosplay to the 1st day instead…that way i have the time to restyle my wig at night……or else, if heine and kaoru is on the same day, i’ll have to restyle it in CF.!!!!

think about the hecticness of it.!!!!

at least for the first day, i’ll cosplay roy, and just put on the wig for the 2nd half of the day….it wouldn’t be too hot too.! XD XD

haha…..well, initially, i was trying to cosplay hyotei’s atobe and roy on the first day….but since another friend of mine want to try nekozawa umehito from ouran, i was thinking, why not i ‘temankan’ her instead..??

haha….GOSH..DECISIONS DECISIONS….!!!!!!

thinking about cosplay is soooooooooooo much better than thinking of some other things…..*coughscan’treallysayanythingherealready*

*i’vealreadydecidedtorantmyunhappystuffsinanotherjournal*

haha….had a hard time reading it..???

haha…..well, it’s to protect my well being and also the stuffs that i’m ranting on too..haha….i might very soon delete what i posted previously too.!!

thought of starting it over clean…..want to put the past behind me..haha…

HITOCHAN HAS GROWN.!!! XD XD

i can think rationally now..!!! XD XD

so yeah….i’ll only post happy and not-so-concerning-with-people stuffs here from now on……^_^

well, lately i notice some changes in me….(ok..don’t go thinking of dirty things okay.!?!?)

anyway, i noticed that i’m more inclined to dress up more like a woman….er…like, heels, skirts, necklace…stuffs like that….i remembered last time….i hated all of those…but somehow, i’m beginning to like them…funny isn’t it..?? HITOKIRI IS ALL GROWN UP..!!! SHE IS BLOOMING INTO A FLOWER..!!!! (haha…gosh..can’t believe i said that…)

hmm…maybe another reason is because i’ve lost a huge amount of weight and i’ve become more confident after that…seriously, last time, when i was like a oversized watermelon, i didn’t really dare to make myself stand out…stuffs like cosplay is only a dream…but with dreams comes motivation….

in order to go into the stuffs i like, i diet….AND AM REALLY GLAD WITH THE OUTCOME.!!!! XD XD haha…

well, the next time you see me in boots and skirts, please, DUN MAKE THE I-DROPPED-MY-JAW-ON-THE-FLOOR look and stare at me like i’m somekind of alienated freak….okay..?? haha….

Wow….i’ve never known to catch a certain bug is so much fun..!!!!

er….i guess you guys know pretty much what that BUG is….

YEAPZ…the shopping BUG..!!! XD XD haha….

i think it has to be the mega sale phenomenon..never knew that spending $$$ could be that fun!!!! haha…

but seriously, the stuffs i bought was dead cheap….

for example, i bought 2 really cool NARNIA t shirt for only RM18…..and a really cool backpack for only rm29!!! (originally it was RM79)

WOW….with that kind of bargain, how could i resist!?!?!?!

but one thing though….MY FEET HURTS..!!!!

i was wearing this 3 inches tall heeled boots the whole day walking around….from 8 am in the morning till like…12am..

8 am was because i had to attend a wedding ceremony and then it’s luncheon till 6 sumthing…then after that i went straight for a gathering with my klang kakis…

GOSH..!!! imagine….and the boots are zipped up till the knee level..OMG…

i saw this really cool sportshoes in The Curve, but was too lazy to take off my boots to try it on….T^T

oh well, i could still go there again..afterall, i’ve already promised my ’sisters’ to go shopping with them next month..( Haha…need time to refill my purse…now i wouldn’t mind if my purse get robbed….haha… just return me my ic and student id..haha….)

why student id you asked..??? hmm…you wouldn’t know how many troubles i went through to get my Lim Kok Wing student id….GOSH..ppl do work really slow there…..they procrastinate and procrastinate like no one’s business….

a simple thing like passing a memo could not be completed in 2 weeks..!?!?!

i was like…WTH!??! what’s with people there..??

GOSH…..SLOW ASSES..!!!!

anyway, speaking of LKW, well, theres this certain person who is slowly getting on my nerves…can’t mention who, but those who knows me well would know who i’m talking about…..

ok, it’s like this…..you guys understand the meaning of ….lembu punya susu, sapi dapat nama..(or something that sounds like that…i think i’ve returned all my BM knowledge to my teachers…haha…)

anyway, it’s like this….a certain someone, claimed another certain someone’s work as his own….(notice i mention HIS…) so yeah, i was so shocked when i knew that happened…..and HE kept asking another person to do HIS work for HIM…..

i wanted to tell him not to do so because things could get really ugly when he goes out to work (like…he used another person’s work as his own…and this would be trouble for him when he faces the real world….you know, stuffs like not enough skills or whatever) …..but i didn’t want to in the end…

i am a person who keeps grudges….yes…i can forgive, but i would never forget…

this particular person has already double crossed me not once, not twice but many times…..stealing ideas and copying work is already a normal thing for him….and not a single work of appreciation from him after i helped him…

so yeah, i didn’t want to tell him anything…..if the lecturer finds out, or when he faces with problems in the near future for his own wrongdoings..then his on his own….

Gah…can’t remember what else i wanna write….my mom stopped me from writting this blog for like 30 minutes coz she wanna see pics….(the wedding ceremony pics today…swt….)

KYAHAHAHA….yeapz….shopping is fun…i can see myself slowly turning into a shopaholic…GAH…all thanx to my mom…she has that disease…(yeap…the shopaholic disease..)

and seeing that i’m her only daughter (and taxi driver..ahem)…how can i not be ‘infected’ by that disease..!?!!?

anyway, we went to mid valley today…first, i was quite tired because i slept late the night before….finishing up one of my assignments….but then, after we went into Topshop,i saw this cute little red coat…the first thing that came into my mind was…CAN IT FIT ME!?!?!? my mom just told me to put it on…so yeah…

*drums rolling* …………………….

YES..!! it fits me puuuuuuuuurfectly..!!!! haha….so that very instant…i got my mood to do shopping.!!! (kyaa…thank you diet..!!! finally i can fit into any clothes i pick from the shop!!!!! no need to feel shy shy anymore!!! XD XD)

ok….so basically, we attacked every single clothing shop in mid valley…haha…

main aim was to get something for my cousin’s wedding you see….(my dad don’t like the fact that i’m wearing black and white for someone’s wedding…-_-lll)

so all the time we were looking for a coatie to go on top of my black top so that i wouldn’t look like mourning on that day…haha…

YEapz…then we finally saw this cute furry (yeah..it’s furry…like a doll) sleeveless overcoat….IT’S SOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo cute..!!!!

picked it up and didn’t want to let go anymore…hahah…

ok…time to put my brainwashing skills into use….and guess what…IT WORKED..!!!

my mom got it for me..!! WAKAKAKAKKA..!!!!

(er….it cost about RM60 for that little furry ‘thing’…haha…)

i was actually surprised too that she’ll just buy it for me…but anyway, MISSION ACCOMPLISHED..!!!!!!

then yeap…went to animetech..AND ALMOST BOUGHT FURUBA’S COSTUME!!!!(The blue sailor uniform….ring any bell??)

but i felt kinda sorry for my mom’s purse….so haha…i thought cosplay costumes are supposed to come out of my purse instead of hers…so yeap…i let it go..T^T

BUT I’ll BE BACK TO GET IT..!!! XD XD

anyway, it was a fun and cool day with mom…..I LOVE SHOPPING NOWWWwwww.!!!! XD XD XD

p/s…my feet hurts…..GAh..how to go gym tomorrow…..T^T…..

YAHAA..!!! finally i’m going shopping tomorrow….gosh…eversince the mega sales started, i’ve been doing my work and busy with college life…..and finally..!! tomorrow me and my mom are free..!! well, what would 2 ladies do when they are free..?? well, DUH….shopping..!!! XD XD

haha……and it’s been a while since i’ve spent some time with my mom…WAKKAKA….i hope she’ll buy me some stuffs tomorrow….

TIME TO PUT MY BRAINWASHING SKILLS TO TEST!!! i wonder if it has rusted since i’ve not used them for a long time….haha…..

hai…today i’ve finally went to the post office to settle the payment for my Vampire Knight costume….GOSH…i’ve had sleepless nights thinking of how to settle that payment…..first, i want to transfer through DT…but damn…it’s more expensive than i thought!!!!

then i thought of international courier….but that cost me even more!!!! (RM24 for just a small letter which weighs less than 200g..!?!? you must be kidding me!!)

so in the end, i opted for registered post…well, it takes about 7 - 10 days to reach the destination but oh well….at least it’s done….^^

so, by far i’ve settled the payments for 3 of my costumes which are my hyotei jersey, my ouran costume and also my Vampire Knight costume….GOSH…i’m sooooooooooo looking forward to the time i collect them…..i can’t help but imagine myself in the hyotei jersey..!! ( I CAN FINALLY COSPLAY ATOBE..!!!)

and my ouran costume!!!( TAMAKI….but i need to search for blonde wigs first..)

and finally….MY VAMPIRE KNIGHT COSTUME..!!! KYAAaaa..!!!( cost me a bomb this one….RM156 ++….-_-lll) although it’s expensive, it’s super cool….GOSH…but to cosplay this i TOO need to get a blonde wig….gonna cosplay takuma ichijoh you see….(so i can put my katana into use…or else i can only swing it for fun in my room….how pathethic….-_-”)

anyway, get ready for more pics after october..!! XD XD

it’s gonna be some cosplaying frenzy time for me!!! XD XD XD

YEah…i m at home, in my comfy room, on my comfy bed once again….no annoyance whatsoever….no one disturbing me listening to my songs…no one asking me to change songs….so happy…it’s as if i’m in paradise…

YEAP…i think a few of you guys know who i am talking about….

lately she’s been getting more annoying….it’s as if she takes me as her maid..!!!

i can’t stand it anymore…..the next time she asks me to do something (no matter what) i’ll tell her no….

i found out that my weakness is telling someone no…..WHY IS IT SO..!?!?!?

well, in my previous post, kenny told me a few definitions on what different types of friends are….(thanx kenny….it’s good to know that people know what i’m going through and giving me advise….THANX!!!!*glompz*)

but after reading through, i can firmly say that I HAVE NO BEST FRIENDS at all…..i only have good friends…..no offense ya people….i’ve been stabbed in the back too many times and it’s really really hard for me to trust a person fully…

maybe i’ve been treating people too nice….havent i..??

so people take advantage of my kindness..????? i’ve been told that i’m sometimes to selfless a person……

oh well, i’m happy being myself….being hito chan….being susu….

to all my TAR college friends, i really really miss you guys….it’s so hard here without you guys…..(although a big bunch came over…) it’ll never be the same without guys like tiffany, wei keat, suet, stefu…GUYSSSSsssss…I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU..!!!!!!!!!

yeap..i’m annoyed yet again…it’s so often lately…(maybe it’s because of assignments and late nights…)

anyway, well, there’s 3 things which annoyed me this week…

first was…..well, a friend who is inconsiderate..

why? well, ..i’ll just put this in another situation rather than the real one..but this is similar to what happened…i bought the television….i subscribed for astro…i let her watch for a while….and here comes the saying, give you an inch you want a mile….

YEap….when i wanna watch it..it’s as if i need to ask her permission to watch….where’s the sense in that?!?!? when you wan to off the tv because you wanna sleep, she keeps stalling time…and i can’t sleep because the glare from the tv is distracting me…..and i need to wake up early the next day….what a bitch someone can be…..and don’t forget…I AM THE ONE PAYING FOR IT..!!

and today, she came again to ask to watch the tv….i just watched it the whole time and grip on to the remote….and then she ponders around and goes to sleep..HAH….you want to watch..get your own…!!

(erm, this is not the real situation…it is just exactly like the real situation…er…get it..??? i didn’t want to relate the real situation because my friends would read it and boycot her…yea….i am still considerate…)

incident number 2….plagiarism…

yeap…i had a friend who sort of plagiarise my work…AGAIN.!!!!

MAN..what an asshole….i thought of you as a friend and you do this to me….i just wanted to help you in your work so i gave you an example and specificly told you not to copy it….but YOU TOOK THE IDEA AND CONCEPT..!!! what an asshole you are..!!!! i guess some things will never change…you’ll be dependent on other people for the rest of your life and you’ll never succeed….TAKE MY WORD FOR IT…YOU’LL NEVER SUCCEED..!!!!!!

incident number 3….inconsiderate person yet again..!!!

yeap….a friend of mine wanted to borrow my mp3 player tomorrow and bring it to school….there’s several reasons why  i can’t do that…first..I HARDLY KNOW YOU..!!! how can i just hand over something so expensive to you.!?!?! yeah, you might be my friend…but i just knew you..it’s not even a month yet.!!! if i hand it over to you i’ll be labelled as STUPID….another reason is, I AM GOING BACK TMRW..so if i lend you my mp3 player, i’d only get it back on monday.!!! so how do i know that you won’t spoil or edit my stuffs after 3 days..????

and when i say no to her, she gave me an ugly face…WELL TO HELL TO YOU GIRL….I DON’T EVEN GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU…!!! i’ve never even asked for your help at all…but you portrayed yourself to me as if you can’t leave without me..you need me to do everything for you….i wouldn’t mind loosing a friend like you…

GAH…if i had a gun, i’d already kill all these worthless assholes..!!!!

GO TO HELL YOU JERKS.!!! man i’m so pissed..!!!!!

Lately, many of my friends have been asking me whether i have a boyfriend or not…ahem…and when i say no….they seemed surprised….WHY IS THAT SO..!?!??!

do i look so frail that i need to depend on someone..???

Although i’m a person who’d take initiative to act, but in this aspect, i’d prefer things to come naturally…..i don’t want to look desperate..(because i’m not)

it’s just like 15 minutes ago, a friend of mine asked me whether i have a boyfriend or not and when i answered her no, she showed me that kind of unbelievable emoticon thingy…Sheeesh…it does not mean that when i hit 20, i need to have a partner or anything rite..???

another thing is my mom….GOSH…i’m dieting now for the sake of my future cosplays..!! not for some guys….GOSH..!!! and she just wouldn’t believe me…

everytime i try to eat less, she’ll say, ‘girl, dun diet la…your ‘jodoh’ not here yet…no need to rush’….AIYO….i feel like banging my head against the wall…

i kept telling her that i’m dieting for cosplay…( i dun wanna be a round roy mustang…*sweatdrops*)…and also for the sake of buying costumes online…(easier if i have sizes…)

SO basically, i am trying to look good for cosplays..!!! not for guys….GARGH..!!!!

nope, i’m not lying to myself…i know what i want in life…now my priorities goes to cosplaying…..many people told me that i’m lying to myself and deep down inside i’m actually trying to look good to attract the opposite sex…but when i reflect on myself, i don’t think that what they say is true…deep down, i still feel that i’m losing weight and trying to look good so that i will gain more confidence and be a better cosplayer…so yeah, i know what my goals are…

boyfriends…hmm…well, when the time comes, or when i meet someone i really like, i’ll consider…(hopefully my rationale thinking would be working that time..haha…)

right now, i’m happily contented with what i have in my life….REMEMBER..!!! FAMILY COMES FIRST…!!! XD XD haha……

p/s….MOMMYYYYYY I MISSSSSSSSSS YOU..!!!1(stuck in hostel for 5 days..)