Hitochan’s Sanctuary

GAH…my usual stress self is back again….although assignments are not difficult but it takes time to finish…(like just plain CG-ing an interior of a room takes about 1 day!!)

i can almost see myself having sleepless nights yet AGAIN! i don’t even have time for other stuffs now….like watching tv, playing ps2, and sometimes i don’t even have the time to check my email!!! (updates and stuffs…)

but i think i can cope, it’s just that the sleepless nights part really sucks….it makes my eyes ugly and i’ll have this superbly large eyebag…-_-lll

and pimples will start to pop out like mushroooms.!!!

GAH…..how i wish life could be easier….but then again, if it’s that easy, life wouldn’t be fun rite?

life’s full of hurdles and one must work hard to overcome it….then only it would be meaningful….

GAH….YOSH….i’ll overcome this hurdle..!!!!

time to go sleep and tomorrow is a new day..!!!!!!

GAMBARIMASHOUUUUuuuuu…!!!!!!

lately i’ve taken an affection towards the name hikari…i’ve decided to adopt this as my name….meaning i’ll be hikari…then followed by my real name..wonder how it’d sound huh?

the reason i opted for this is name is mainly because of the metaphor it gives..hikari, when translated, literally means light…and light is usually associated with hope, life,….er…something like that…

(okay okay..!! another reason was because i love utada hikaru’s Hikari from kingdom hearts very much!)

hitokiri might be my nickname online, but the next time i introduce myself to people, i’ll say, call me hikari….how does that sound? hmmmm…..

anyway, all names and hikari aside, i’ve finally decided to cosplay a female character..!!!(yeah….*throws confetti* it’s an acheivement..!!!)

it’ll be NANA….yeap…the punk rock and awesomely cool NANA….i don’t know why, but i seem to idolize her…she is independent, strong, cool, and will stand up for friends….She’s everything i want to be..!!!

(seriously, i would very much want to sing in a band….)

so yeah…after i lose my extra weight…(hopefully by the end of this year….) i’ll grow my hair and cut it like her, then try it out…..but the thing is…my hair might be blue, red or purple that time….@_@;;;;

it’s kinda like a promise to myself to change my hair colour after not touching it for 1 year…the reason i didn’t change the colour after blonde was because…MAIN REASON….cosplaying roy mustang…2nd reason…i want my hair to recover after the damage done to it by bleaching it twice last year….

so yeah, basically, before chinese new year, i’ll go to the saloon and change the colour on my head..haha…so be prepared for a blue, red or purple haired hitokiri.!!(or rather, HIKARI!)

have you came across a certain person, whom is like an annoying fly, buzzing around…??

well, yeap…there’s this one person who is worse that that annoying fly…

i wouldn’t mention who, but that person is really an annoyance in my life…

she is like cleopatra, seriously. i’ve never met such a person like her before…sometimes i really wanna slap her and just ask her to get the hell out of my life…

like for example, here’s the situation….Me in my room….doing homework and listening to my jap songs softly (notice the word SOFTLY)..she outside the hall watching tv and suddenly there’s a phonecall…

she dashed into my room to answer and lowered the speaker on my laptop…without telling or asking me….and the song wasn’t even loud..!!(seriously…just imagine a piano piece softly)…

and then she walks around my room, and put her legs on my bed..i was like…WTF..!?!?

and then when she finished, she asked me a few questions and then i answered relunctantly…and she is thick skinned enough to ask me…hey, why am i so unhappy….gosh…i really wanted to slap her….annoying bitch….

there’s still many things…..but then i wouldn’t wanna go through the trouble to type it out….i just need to rant a little or else i might explode…GOSH>..

what a selfish and inconsiderate person.!!!!

kya…i’m now enjoying the wonderful and beautiful song sang by Yuna Ito for the nana live movie….gosh…everytime i hear this song i’ll think about the scene where nana and ren kissed in the train….it’s so touching…..(makes me wanna geta bf…haha…..XD XD)

ahem ahem…anyway, speaking about movie…yesterday i watched this ghost movie which made me had nightmares….DAMN..!!!

Dollmaster….what a show….i didn’t wanna watch it in the first place…(coz i have assignments and stuffs to do) but after hearing my housemates screaming like crazy ppl i decided to join in the fun…..haha…seriously, it was funny..haha…

you know those typical horror movies where they tend to make things tense anad then suddenly scaring the hell out of the viewers? well, we went through several scenes like that, and all we could say is ‘ FASTER….WHERE’S THE GHOST..FASTER…’ haha….and all of us were covering our eyes with pillows, towels…plushies….AND EVEN HANDPHONES.!!!(er…that was me.haha…i had nothing in my hand that time except for my handphone…so i used that as a ‘blind’…haha..)

after the movie….my housemate were bz throwing around her doll…WAKKAKAK.!!! XD XD..

good thing my plushies are allllllllll sooooooooooooo adorable….*grabs p chan*

XD XD

hmm….apart from that, i’ve been wondering….if i go and sweat out in the sauna room everyday for 30 minutes, i wonder how much weight i’ll lose in 1 week..?? coz that’s what i’ve been doing now…given the priviledge of having such facilities in the condo/hostel, why not fully utilize it.? haha…

KYAaaaaa…..i’m gonna make myself enjoy life in lim kok wing as much as i can..!!!!

well, today i visited a friend…after so long not meeting her, i decided to catch up with her..haha…(well, afterall, it’s gonna be her birthday soon…)

anyway, got to know a lot of things from her…but the most shocking of all is about a friend who has left to a better place……she fell victim to one of the most vicious killer of all, Cancer….although i didn’t know her THAT well, i still feel kinda sad….i mean, she is a bright and shinning person…..i still remember her running around, going for camps…but now, she is gone….it’s so hard to believe it….and to make the impact even harder, she is 1 year younger than me!! she has such bright future…!!!! it didn’t hit me this hard when i got the news…but now it got me thinking..

anyway, this incident has made me thought deeper about the meaning of life…i’m not gonna get all philosophical now, but what is life?

it’s just something so fragile and the fire on our lifecandle can just burn out, or simply blown out just like that. our vulnarable life could just be gone…an active person does not mean that that person is healthy and will live till grey hair covers his head…a sickly person might just outlive anyone of us now….

Death can happen to anyone, anytime, and at anyplace. It’s not like any anime stories or fairytale, there’s no resurrection in this reality…when you’re gone, YOU’RE GONE..!!

i wouldn’t want to be the person to lie on my deathbed and think about the things that i’ve not accomplished and done in life. living life to the fullest is what i’ve been doing everyday. Some ppl might say that i’m stupid and crazy for trying out different things and doing stupid crazy stuffs….

to some people, my cosplaying hobby is a weird one….like my friend once asked me, why was (and i still am) i willing to spend my hard saved cash on costumes and props….she did say that i’m plain stupid…(i’ve no comment on that…i’ve seen ppl shop for clothes that they don’t even wear…..)

what i told her in return is that i DARE to be different and i live my life to the fullest….i wouldn’t want to regret on my deathbed and cry about what i did or did not do in the past…

another case was when i was blonde…many people glare at me for turning my hair into another colour which was of not my identity…i didn’t care…as long as i’m happy about it, i couldn’t care less about other’s people views…(although i did shock my family..haha….the looks on their face…PRICELESS!!)

at least i can reflect back and proudly say that i’ve been there, done that….

my one advice to my friends…is to live life to the fullest and never have any regrets in life….once you make a choice, go through it with happiness…as life is so fragile, you wouldn’t know when you’ll ‘move on’…

to the family of my departed friend, my condolences to you..but always remember, she has been freed of her sufferings and is in a better place now…

she will surely be missed but not forgotten….