Hitochan’s Sanctuary

well, if you have someone close to you celebrating his special day but you didn’t get anything for him, does that make you a bad person..??

coz someone special to me has just celebrated his birthday…and i didn’t get him anything……i felt really really bad….*sulks at the side of the wall*

and i did mention that i’ll get him something…..gosh…wonder if he’ll feel that i’m a liar…????

OI..you ppl, i’m talking about my brothers ya…not boyfriend ya…!!!!(hitochan does not have that much luck to get a bf…*sulks again at the side of a dark room*)

haha…anyway, yeap, my younger and elder’s bro just passed…and i didn’t even get them anything…(FYI, one is on the 4th and another on the 6th..i need to thank my mom to choose such a nice and close date to give birth to the 2 monkeys….-_-lll)

but i did text them a birthday wish…..another thing is, can’t really blame me….i have no time to actually go out and get them a gift….i’ve been sleeping less than 4 hours a day now because of my stupid assignments…

GAH…but what is this guilt i’m feeling..??? i’ve never felt like this for the past few years before…..maybe it’s because i feel like i’m making empty promises…i mean, i did mention that i’ll get an EEYORE for my elder bro (ugh..dun ask why..) and a bugs bunny or my younger bro..(ugh…dun ask why again…)

the reasons behind the gifts have some sort of relation to football…..so er…go figure…HAHA…

but there were cakes / mooncakes and pizza….and although i wasnt’ at home for their birthdays, they managed(notice i used the word managed…food is reealllyy hard to not-go-finish in my hse…-_-lll) to keep a few pieces of cakes and pizza for me…AWWWWwwwww………that’s so sweet of them..

but one thing that kinda made me felt like strangling my younger bro was the time he texted me and told me they were enjoying the cake…(i wasn’t home on the day they cut the cake…) GOSH..he sms-ed me every single detail of the taste he had of the cake when i was working my ass off to finish my assignment on an empty stomach….AND MY MOM HAD TO CALL ME AND TELL ME THAT THEY WERE ENJOYING IT…GAHhhhhhhhh…(but in a way it was funny..haha…)

haha…anyway, happy belated birthdays my 2 bros……XD XD i promise to get you your eeyore and bugs bunny…really….i’ll go shopping during raya break and get you guys sumthing….

SO BE SURE YOU REPAY YOUR DEAR SIS ON THE 17TH OF FEB…….BWAHAHHAHA……(see….i AM bad…!!!) ^__________________^

well, looks like that my stages of sore throat + flu + cough have reached the peak…..

yeap, i’ve completely lost my voice….(seriously, i cant talk now…i can only whisper….it hurts my throat to talk…)

i wonder how i’m gonna consult my lecturer tmrw and give out a presentation on friday…??

hmmm…..

GAh….have anyone ever felt hungry till they can’t sleep..?? well, this was what happened to me yester’nite’…..i did my assignment till 2.30 (without realising it and i have class at 9am the following day…wth!?)

haha…anyway, after i found out it was already past 2.30, i quickly signed off everything i did, saved whatever stupid assignment i did, washed my face (wouldn’t want pimples now do we..haha..) and then went straight to bed…

after tossing and turning for so many times, I REALIZED ONE MAJOR PROBLEM…

I CAN’T SLEEEEP.!!!!! i tried counting sheeps…(yeah, the lame one) i imagined one sheep jumping over the fence, one after another….oh, i counted till it was 637 sheeps…SERIOUSLY…then i decided to give up….still can’t sleep..

THEN…i found out the culprit….MY STUPID STOMACH WAS MAKING NOISES..!!!

(oh, btw, i realised that i only ate 1 bun for the whole day….WOW…it surprised me too..!! XD XD)

anyway, i was so hungry, but then i’ve already brushed my teeth, and already lying on the bed…so i thought…oh what the heck, just sleep and then wake up in the morning and have breakfast..!!!

GOSH….i didn’t know TRYING TO SLEEP WITH A HUNGRY STOMACH IS SO DIFFICULT.!!!! it’s as if my stomach is my natural alarm clock…i slept for 5 minutes, then woke up….then dozed off for another 30 minutes, then woke up again….it was like that from 4am till 7.30am….then after that i slept….AND THEN I WOKE UP AT 8 am…the real alarm clock rang this time….GOSH….i was so tired the whole day today that i started crapping during moral class….haha..

anyway, let’s hope i don’t go hungry again tonite…WAKAKKA….

or else i’ll break my record yesterday…i’ll count sheeps till it’s 1000..!!! XD XD

well, yeah, this IS baaaaad…i’m talking bout my sickness…

gosh, my throat is getting worse by the day….and it didn’t help much when i had a SUPER-SPICY-PLUS-A-GAZZILION-CHILLI-AND-PEPPER Steamboat yesterday..sheesh, just when will i ever learn….

anyway, the phlegm in my throat is increasing (yeah, i know it’s disgusting..haha..) and everytime i wake up, i couldn’t even say anything…it seems that my voicebox is completely covered up..i think..haha..

wow, if anyone were to kill me when i wake up, i wouldn’t be able to scream or make any noise…GOSH….SCARRRRRYYYyyy…

*note to self, keep katana next to bed*

ahem, well, anyway, IT’S OCTOBER FINALLY..!!! GOSH..i’ve been counting down the days before it reaches my assignment deadlines….in a way, i’m happy that it’s reaching, but on the other hand, i’m also worried that i’ll not be able to complete it….

but confidence is what i have, and i’m confident that i’ll be able to make it…

i’ve already finished 1 (yeah, that’s pathethic…i know) assignment 2 weeks before it’s deadline….another 2 more to go…..flash and human analogy distortment…thingy…hahaa….not really worried about that, the ideas and way to do it is already in my mind…

what i’m really worried about is my 3D and my web tech…GOSH…3D, well, the idea is there…is the executing which is scaring me….i mean…i salute those people in square enix for producing such high quality works like FFAC..(GOSH..DID YOU KNOW HOW HARD IZZIT TO MODEL A HUMAN!?!?!!?)

GAH…and web tech…idea not there…plan to do it spontaneosly…*Crosses fingers*

looks like it’s another week of sleepless nights again..

HAHA..on the bright side..LOTS OF WORK MAKE ME LOSE WEIGHT..!! SO IT SHOULD BE A GOOD THING..NO?