Hitochan’s Sanctuary

hmm, i wonder how long has it been since i last written anything here….
backtracking, i think my last post was february….AHh, the good old days, where stress seems so far away and everything about life is fun and exciting.

Anyway, yes,Life is a rollercoaster, what ronan keating sang in his song really IS true. There are ups and downs in a person’s life. Just that, sometimes when the coach takes a plunge, it’ll really hit rock bottom.
One is bound to face this certain phase in life and i feel that i’m facing it now. Somehow i feel really stressed out, and i haven’t been talking or smiling as much as i have been lately. Why is that? i really cannot explain.

Usually, i’ll let out everything i have stuffed up in my feelings, but now, i tend to keep everything inside. and yes, there were often times i’ve thought that ‘Hmm, is life really worth living? should i end it?’ but then i have another part of me which says ‘ I can’t be a wimp and run away from everything i’m facing now, what will happen to my parents? family? everyone who cared about me?’

But sometimes, i feel so alone. that’s when i coup myself up in my room, and watch nothing but anime and read manga. I really can’t explain why this is happening to me. Should i seek professional help? This really isn’t me, and i know it. The usual me is the bubbly type, the ‘genki’, the OMAIGOD-YOU-ARE-ALWAYS-SO-CRAZY-AND-LOUD hitokiri.

lately, i think my mouth opened and talk about 50% less than the usual me. I hope this phase in my life will go away and hopefully the coach i’m riding on in my rollercoaster of life will reach the peak again.

Maybe i should seek spiritual help too? a visit to the temple sounds good……

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